Great day overall, though rather overwhelming. First day with both boys in the house. Quality time with both, and each one.
But now it is 4 am and I have been up since 2:30. And Tiny Guy has only been up since after 3. The Boy was throwing a fit at 10:30 and woke up 4 hours later to pick up where he left off. He left the room and was asking for things, and was screeching, and just being a little jerk. Daddy was having a time trying to calm him, and I was trying to stay asleep because my turn with Tiny Guy was coming soon. Finally I got out of bed to calm The Boy. So it's been...when The Boy is not receiving direct attention from me, he gets up out of bed and wanders. But Tiny Guy needs me too. I nursed one side twice and pumped the other, and right now Daddy is giving him a bottle. Partly for the healing but mostly so that I can stay with The Boy and keep him from wandering and throwing fits. Oh, and Tiny Guy is still not wild about the bottle.
The problem is that when we offer a bottle, we don't know how much he needs, and he generally doesn't replace full feedings with a bottle. But even the process of trying to get Tiny Guy to take a bottle is probably less stressful than toddler drama. At 4 am. Fortunately I pump more than either of them drinks right now. The Boy wanted milk, so I poured him 1.5 oz or so. He took 2 sips and changed his mind. Yes, he is drinking people milk. He is a person. But I am not thrilled about wasting milk.
So I don't yet know if Tiny Guy was satisfied with his bottle but it seems as though The Boy is asleep. No, nevermind. But he is calm. And all I hear from the living room is the TV. Once nursing becomes easy, as I know it does, I think I will have a better handle on both boys. Because Mommy is essential. In the meantime, if every night at home is like this, then we're all F-ed.